Demi Lovato has always been open about her troubles with bipolar disorder, an eating disorder, and substance abuse.
Now, the singer has opened up further about her past in a new interview with Refinery 29, where she reveals what she was like during her troubled times, and how she turned her life around.
On Her Former Self:
“‘Try to ground me — I pay your bills,’” Demi recalls telling her parents when they’d try and discipline her. “Prior to getting sober, I was one of those people who was like, I don’t give a fuck, whatever. And I used that as an excuse to do whatever I wanted. I was a nightmare to work with.”
When describing her former self, Demi calls herself: “Just bitchy, a cunt.”
On Changing her Life:
“I had to learn the hard way that I can’t do parties anymore. Some people can go out and not be triggered, but that’s not the case for me.”
“I know [my life] sounds so boring, but I’ve come to a place where I’d rather be relaxed than get all dressed up and go to some party or club with people who don’t really care about my well-being at all.”
On Resisting The Urge to Watch Amy Winehouse‘s documentary:
“To see white powder in a movie? To see someone shooting up? It’s too triggering. If I feel even 1% unsure that I’m in a place where I can watch it, then I just don’t do it.”
On Using Social Media for Body Positivity:
“I’ve been doing this so long I literally laugh at the things people say. You’re not going to agree with everybody and you’re not going to please everybody.”
On Confident and Cool for the Summer not hitting Number 1:
“I was really bummed about it because that’s what I was going for. I got to a point where I was like, Oh my god, it does not fucking matter. At the end of the day, I’m going to be on tour and I want to be performing songs on stage that I can sing my ass off to and really feel when I’m on stage. So now I have a much better sense of my music.”
On Engagement Rumours:
“It’s nobody’s business but ours, and when it happens, it happens.”
Read more of Demi’s interview here!